i should be studying ochem.

it's amazing how some things just fall into place in the most captivating way.
sometimes i just sit there and feel oohhhed by the fact that what i have was not just given to me, but i earned it. chances were given to me and i took them into my hands and tended to their needs. even if i sweated, i sweated with proudness. you work for your dreams to come true. you work for your desires to be real, with heartbeats and sweaty hands and long hours of unknowingness. there is no "destiny" for you to get this and for you to get that. but as long as you are patient and preseverent, what rightfully belongs to you will eventually reach you. have hope. tears that roll down your window of view will not be wasteful, they are just your momentarily release into the recycling bin. yano? just a rest for energy.

i'm blabbling.