i love how i have..

a memory of a five year old.

what i remember today will soon be forgotten tomorrow. i hate that. i absolutely dispise that part about myself. it's my biggest flaw. my worse enemy.

but sometimes, i remember stuff that straight-up surprises me. i remembered something today about what sss said in the past about his jaw. he once said that he doesn't like to chew gum because he used to chew it so much it hurts his jaws. so, while he was gross-ly chewing this tobacco wannabe pink chewing gum and blowing bubbles onto my hand and letting it stick there so i looked like mummy, that thought rolled right into my head. i mean, i'm the kind of girl where if you say something to me, i'd say, "uh huh, wow that's interesting" and truly mean it, but somehow i'd soon forget it unless you keep telling me the same story and it'd somehow magically click into my head and i'd remember it for the rest of next few days. but then, it evaporates and gets recyclced into another thought. so moral of the story, the fact that something so subtle and un-remarkably interesting somehow pertain its way into my head two years later makes me question the way my brain works. can stuff that has already been evaported into "gaseous particles" be able to precipitate again? some of my meticulous memory must have a low solubility for a lovely reason.