with only half an eye..

-.o

i look just like that right now! i'm on the lookout for my left contact. it's somewhere in my eye...so i can see clearly now the rain is gone. jk. i can only see clearly through my right eye.

well, with only half of my pair of eyes working, i feel like appreciating my left eye when i was able to use it. i recently learned from mr. lovely that my left eye is dominant. my left eye, the one that i'll need when i play paintball. my left eye, the one that helps me see the sincerity in people when all they express is bitterness or heartlessness. my left eye is my right eye's partner in crime. they go hand in hand. yin and the yang. heaven and hell. yano?

sigh, as things have been fluctuating in my life, it's been very hard to study for finals, especially when i can't even see things clearly through the floods of tears. sometimes i feel like a stone, as tough and hard as one can be, but i know that my heart is as tender as my lunch last monday: baby back ribs. sometimes i just sit there in a corner and wish that i am as far away as possible, somewhere only happy little green elves run loose with chocolate chip cookies and tall dwarves of milkshakes. the desire to never wanting to return to this place i call home is extremely growing larger day after day. i'm a fickled little girl at times, but at other times, my mind is set to leave this pothole asap. that or always booking up my agenda with both significant events and unnecessary outgoings. wishing and hoping are no longer in my book that i locate in my mind. i'm just waiting for the perfect day to say goodbye.

anyhow, see what i'm saying? i've wasted half an hour of time that i could have spent studying for my physics and ochem lab finals.

p.s. happy four months, mr lovely. thank you for always letting me confide and mourn in your arms.